I am a dreamer. No, literally. I have incredibly vivid dreams with sights and sounds and strong emotions that are present long after I awake. I have the usual stress dreams that I think many people have in various versions. The one where I can’t remember my locker combination. The one where I’m running and... Continue Reading →
Fifty Shades of Beige
I grew up in a beige world. The walls were beige. Our furniture was beige. Most memorable of all, however, was that my mother wore beige. Like, all the time. Blouses, skirts (never pants), shoes. All beige. My mom grew up in Nazi Germany, where one did everything in one's power to blend in. I... Continue Reading →
Sew Me Up
I think I want a sewing machine. I realize this seems like a random thought and a rather weird desire, but it isn’t like I want a pet lemur or wish to quit my job and move to Germany. Buying a sewing machine is a perfectly rational item to want, but there is a reason... Continue Reading →
The Days of My Neck
This chronic pain demon is messing with me again. My diagnoses are messing with me again. Maybe life is just messing with me again. Yesterday I got a third round of trigger point injections in my neck. The first round actually seemed to alleviate my neck pain a bit. Like maybe 13.4%. But when you... Continue Reading →
I’m Dreaming of a Normal Night’s Sleep
I just awoke from a dream in which I existed in three different stages at my life, but the action took place all at once. It was unsettling, but I’m not really sure why. Let me preface what I am about to write by saying that my dreams are extremely vivid, like a movie playing... Continue Reading →
You Like Me…or Do You?
From the time I have a recollection of rational thoughts as a human, I have been a people-pleaser. First with my parents, then with my friends, college buddies, work colleagues, and ultimately my extended family. It takes me an achingly long time to feel comfortable enough with someone to reveal my true self. This led... Continue Reading →
Quite the Puzzle
My husband Bill loves puzzles. I am sitting in his chair as I write this and I am surrounded by a books of Sudoku and KenKen. He does these puzzles as we watch TV at night, giving half of his attention to the plot of the series and half to the numbers that will complete... Continue Reading →
Comeback Tour
It seems my pain is making a comeback tour, only this time with a twist. It’s kind of like the ad I saw yesterday for the awesome Eagles on a new tour, but now Vince Gill is an Eagle. Huh? I guess it kind of makes sense, though. The Eagles needed a new voice and... Continue Reading →
Mistakes, I’ve Made a Few
Although I wish my sole purpose in life was to write, I have a day job that can be quite demanding. I teach Language Arts Enrichment—a beautiful way to say arts and crafts with as much language arts as I can cram in—to students in a special education school. I am also the school’s testing... Continue Reading →
Emotional Banking
Yesterday I burst into tears on the way to the bank. Now, banking does not normally elicit such strong emotions from me. I’m don’t wail when signing the back of a check or scream for joy when I withdraw cash. But yesterday was different. Held tightly to my chest yesterday afternoon was a simple Priority... Continue Reading →
Ever Onward 